An open Letter to my Father

Dear Lord,

Can I be real for a moment? Can I tell you how I feel?
Your word says you know my every thought (Job 42:2)
You know my every need before I ask it. (Matt. 6:8)
So I pray a letter to tell you how I feel, praying that your comfort
will begin to overwhelm. Because the truth is,

I feel like crying most days, and sometimes I feel hopelessly lost.
People tell me I am strong but the truth is that they are wrong (Psalm 38:9-10)
I have nightmares, and anxiety and I worry about what I can't control
But your word says worry for nothing, because we have Your perfect love.
I get insecure and feel down when the world takes its full toll
But your word says that trials will fall on the unjust and the just! (Matt 5:45)

Sometimes, I cry and sometimes I get mad (Psalm 69:3)
When the day is over, for hours I will just lay in my bed (Psalm 6:6)
I Wonder about life and if tomorrow I will grow weary just the same.
But your word promises strength to those who lean upon your wonderful name! (Isaiah 40:30-31)
but then I get up in the morning and decide that it is worth it
You never promised a perfect life, but You promised your perfect peace. (Psalm 29:11)

Lord sometimes I lose my faith and question your every move
But I know that in your word, faith is when I can't see those things of which I hope (Heb. 11:1)
I ask you why I feel such pain and I why I work so hard for pennies (Luke 12:28)
For weeks you may be quiet and all I will have is your Word to guide me (Psalm 119:105)
But I will be so busy and i feel week from the lack of your light.

Jesus, I know you are with me always
but many days I feel like I have failed (Psalm 38:3)
and though I try to behave my spirit gets rebellious and runs away
I tell myself that I am just human but I know its because I haven't sought you lately.

Jesus my God, you sought me from the beginning
If only I took the time to just sit and rest in your presence (Psalm 23:2)
I know I would have better days where I am lead in righteousness. (Psalm 23:3)

i look into your bible and realize that you promise me provision! (Matthew 6:25-34)
It isn't even an issue for you to supply  my every need.
here I am worrying if tomorrow I will have gas (Php 4:19)
Worrying if the bills will get paid a whole year in advance . . .

Lord, you are the Maker, you gave breath to my lungs
Clearly I need to re-evaluate the power of your strong arm! (Isaiah 40:10)
that I so blatantly cannot perceive when I let my spirit grow glum.

Lord, you are the maker, the heavens is your throne (Isaiah 66:1)
here on earth, on the footstool of the universe I pray you will continue to bless my home
Lord, my God, Creator of all the known and unknown (Genesis 2:4)
I pray you give me strength & faith to Worship and follow you for the rest of my days! (Psalm 29:2)

Make me whole by making me holy! (Romans 5:19)
Let all I desire be in your will!
For your names sake I pray I can proclaim, the gospel you've given on that precious day
Christ, my redeemer, who redeemed me from my sin (Galations 3:13)
Through your blood, His wrath was satisfied and I am made righteous in His eyes! (Romans 3:25)
Glory to the Father who sits on High, may I always remember I'm His child
and through Him I have eternal life!