Her name is San Dara from the girl group called 2NE1. I absolutely adore her. She is about to turn thirty and she is still unmarried. For certain companies in South Korea, bands have dating bans. During those times, the members are not allowed to get romantically involved with anyone. For Dara that ban was lifted in May. Hopefully she will find someone handsome and kind, and worth her time. :)
But I know, here in the United States, dating can be a difficult thing when you are a full time student and working. I am single and in my senior year in college, and I have a job and heavily involved in my church. My goal is to be fluent in korean before I go to South Korea to teach English as a second language. To be honest, I get so busy with the life that I have created for myself that I forget to date. The older I get, I get more comfortable with being single, and though I get lonely, the energy it takes to get romantically involved seems like so much!
You have to learn to care and love that person :) listen to him, spend time with him, cook for him, and all these other things, and I know it would take away from my job, or my church, or my school.... I'm not saying I don't want to get married or I don't want to be in a relationship, but when I look at it from that perspective it seems like a HUGE responsibility. I am SO proud of San Dara for making a great career for herself and putting a legacy in her life, so that now she can relax, look back on her successful life and now create a family. I want the same thing for me!
I want a degree, and a career! I want to say that I did something with my life and that I was successful! I want to go to South Korea, fluently speaking the language and making a beautiful career that I did the best of my ability. I want to look back on my life and see a life that was fully lived, not a life that was wasted. I don't want to regret the moments of my past, but see a clear life that I can be fond of. After I have done that, I would be proud to settle down, give the man of my dreams my long awaited heart and have children. It would be in that time, I would be proud to call myself a mother, because I know that when they are grown, they would be proud to calls themselves my children.
I am only turning 24 in about twenty days. Six years away from thirty. So right now I don't have anything to worry about. I think the only reason I feel pressure to be married so often is because my twin Anja is married and on her third child. Seeing it from that perspective, I can see why people want me to be "happy." They want me to be happy like my twin has found happiness, but what people don't realize is that where I am at right now is where I am happy the most. When they realize that, I don't think I will feel as much pressure to be married and have a din of kids yet.
The link below is a clip from a popular South Korean show called, "Strong Heart" and it was a YG special for two episodes. Episode 123 and 124 where the original MC had his last night. It is a beautiful episode and certainly full of laughs but this is a breakout song and dance that San Dara wrote to the world! Both funny and Cute!!!! <3 Please Enjoy!
I have never Actually voiced these thoughts so clearly before but I hope that these thoughts can be appreciated for what they are :)
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